Ruff Times

What do you do when your having a ruff time? Getting over it and ignoring it are the hardest problem I find myself facing. My birthday is coming up on Wednesday and its slowly inching along it just seems like everyone forgot, or doesn't really care. Maybe I'm just expecting too much or expecting to early. Lately I've been having some problems with "friends" and family. How do you escape that when your surrounded by books, TV shows, songs, and movies that make everything look so easy. They either don't have problems or if they do they end up happy in the end unless its something actually based on life and the ending does end up jacked up. Fighting fire with fire doesn't seem to get me anywhere and trying to tell other people only seems to get them involved and choosing sides and someone always seems to get hurt. Why is life so frustrating because right now I'm a teenager and the heavens are screaming lets make her life suck right now!! Its like hey my birthday is coming up spare me and wait till another time I need something good to happen to me. Maybe its also because people irritate me so easily and I snap back with an annoyed and irritated tone and they totally go all spaz on me and its like calm your self the only reason I snapped back was because you made it so easy with your annoyance and irritation so basically you put this all on your self. At least that's how I see it a lot of the time. School isn't helping either with is random throwing of homework here and there and quizzes and testing popping up every week. Its like give me a break I can only "study" for one thing throughout the whole week. So right now your probably thinking A) I'm super lazy and B) I complain a lot. Or C) I spend all my time sitting at my laptop pouring out my feelings to people.Well I guess your partly correct but not most of the time. I mean we all get lazy at times and no one can not complain I mean everyone has to get irradiated and annoyed with something no matter what that something is. No I don't spend ALL my time pouring out my feelings to people that's what my diary and phone is for. So this is why I plan spending my weekend watching movies and eating its a pretty well thought plan if I don't say so my self and it keeps me out the of "know" and "drama" for at least a little bit. What I need is a very long weekend or break just to think about things and keep to myself. Now don't go thinking keeping to myself leads to something bad. I'm not one of those stereotyped teens. Well I will stop pouring out how I feel to you guys and go on with my idiotic life for the time being (no that is not a suicidal reference you nimrods.) The song I leave you guys with today is "Amber Waves" Erin McCarley. ~Veronica <3